25 days later

the month started with its usual expectations for most miamians. here comes another hot Christmas with the whole package of cluttered streets and dizzied minds trying to understand the necessities of there receiving parties. As a matter of fact, this December has been quite different for me than years past. Starting with the emptiness of not having a job to buy myself an itunes card to fulfill the simple pleasures that make me smile. Thankfully my family always seems to find a way to huddle together and spend a cheap ol' time together and have the best time manageable. So here i am 25 days later into the month and I'm in Tampa at my brothers place sitting in the dark with a full stomach and a tired pair of eyes jotting down my gratitude for all the sweets and meat while listening to some tunes on my months old laptop computer. I wouldn't have seen this coming if you would have told me so. A man learns to appreciate things when he lives in poverty after having 1500 dollar weekly checks to blow on whatever he thought would be a necessity at the time. now I'm living on 300 dollars twice a month, if I'm lucky, and i count it a blessing when i have butter with my bread. So as you could see, the computer and the music are a lovely addition but the gathering and the sweets plus meat are as a far reaching blessing as an ionic charged cloud in the middle of the dessert. Apart from the desire my eyes hold to shut away the light and go into a state of r.e.m., I feel the need to say that i am grateful for all the blessings that come in ways that remind my fractured mind of a wonderfully unexpected Christmas morning present tucked away in a box wrapped in colorful paper. Some days i would just prefer a present that would fit in between my molars and have the biodegradable qualities that make digestion easy. But in times of hardship and scarcity, a distracting sound and flashing image could help repress the hunger that begs to be silenced in the darkness of an empty bag inside. A bag for the gifts from God that are, indeed, consumable.

Paradigm Shift

When entering a new atmosphere, most people feel a bit alienated or have the sensation of there surroundings becoming incrementally familiar. Could this be true of the opposite? What could cause a familiar place to become increasingly estranged, or even unrecognizable? I began to feel this as a born again Christian. I walked down the very same streets and hallways I frequented on a weekly basis. I looked at people and began to see them from a different perspective. The truth had set me free and now I was seeing the world for what it really was. But I soon noticed that neither the people nor the places had changed. It was my own mind that was renewed. As I began to see the world, things were unveiled and naked within the awareness in the pattern of my thoughts. I realized I had been living in this world oblivious of its true identity. But now I was seeing it from the angle of truth. Now I was the alien in a socially accepted world which did not want or could not accept my reasoning and my views. I had become an alien in my own world. I had abandoned conformity and was rejected for it. I didn't fit in the world.

The truth is, the people of this world are the ones who live in the veiled society which has been molded by lies and immorality. But most of all I would say that which has caused this planet to become a temporary home for Christians is the death of Love in the hearts of people. Not just love for one another but love for justice and righteousness and above all the lack of love towards God. I notice that there are a certain group of people that control the happenings and turnout of this world. And the main problem is the veil that causes people to miss this truth. If all could see the true nature of who is really behind the guiding influence behind the world powers than I believe many would awaken from hate and ignorance and step into love and freedom.

I am ready to live this life as an alien here. For if truth is worth dying for, then living in falsehood is worth nothing accept living to find truth.

Seraph Trend